BELOVED SERVANT
When someone asks me why I write, I have to honestly say that I write because I like to put my thoughts on paper in order to process all that is rolling round in my head. Like a lot of people, I like to read, in particular I enjoy reading the Bible or classical Christian literature and sometimes I write about those things. I hope you will enjoy my ramblings, my musings and my "Aha" moments.
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IN MEMORIAM
For Omni
The heart of God
Stands by the river
Holding my hand
Grieving
The water glistens
Shedding the tears
That won’t come
Sorrow settles
Over my shoulders
Like a weighty mantle
Sadness envelops
But does not smother
My deep sighs
The darkness deepens
The sounds of the earth
Echo the cries of my heart
Regret works its way in
Slithering through the grass
Threatening me
Wounding me
Would that I could
Rewind the clock
Turn the hands back
And try again
Take time to listen
Offer help
Speak a word of hope
Would that life
Had a rewind button
Or a fast forward
To a day when grief
Has loosened its grip
On my soul
But life only plays
At its own speed
There is no pause
Or stop
Or rewind
It flows like a river
In one direction
Over rocks
And fallen branches
Through dark pools
And shallow rivulets
Always moving
Never stopping
Even when
Our heart stops
The heart of God
Opens my heart
To memories
Precious and pure
A laugh behind a hand
A yellow towel for hair
A thumb well sucked
Long talks about faith
Faith that awakens
Hope that heals
Light that illumines
Sharing journeys
Airing doubts
Confiding fears
Sometimes life is stolen
A breath at a time
One painful breath
One fearful sigh
One gasp of loss
The heart of God
Restores life
Bestows hope
Comforts sorrow
Eases fears
If we would
But listen
We are all on the edge of despair
At any given time
Sometimes we recognize it
And sometimes we fear it
We cannot see
Our constant need for rescue
We walk a tightrope
Of talking others off the edge
Of their cliffs
And finding a secure foothold
For our own climb
Life is struggle
The smooth places are few
The memories of
Our harrowing escapes
Haunt us
The fear of
Eventual destruction
Paralyzes us
Where can we feel safe?
Whom can we trust?
When will we feel less alone?
I look to the Lord
My ever-present help
In times of trouble
My constant rock
Never shifting
Always there
A foundation to build on
To trust with my life
To share with other
Desperate souls
Trudging through snow drifts
Frigid feet and toes
Wet with ice cold sweat
The animals
Hiding in their dens
The seeds of promise
Buried 'neath frozen soil
Refreshment
Of the underground stream
Stopped in its tracks
At the first breath of open air
Stark, dark branches
Whipping in the swirling wind
The Gift in the Flames
There is a beautiful glow in my heart
It is there the alchemy of God's heart with my heart occurs
It is the tongue of fire on my head
The Spirit of Consuming Fire
That purifies, sanctifies, expands and contractsIn this center of substance and nothingness
There is sorrow and compassion
For the brokenness in me and all around me
It is hot and destructive
Of anything in its path
That attempts to block its journey towards its end goal
Its destiny to merge together jagged cracks and gaping crevasses
Into smooth, solid stoneIt is a river of lava flowing
To meld into these broken cracks and weld them together again
When it is a raging fire
It seems like life will never come again
That there is only death in its wakeI do not see the gift in the flames
There there is oneness and healing yet to come
The river of lava
Once it settles and cools
Becomes the fertile soil of new life and beautyI do not see the seeds
That will be carried on the winds yet to come
That will settle into its black pools and low places
That will plunge their roots through and through and through
The impenetrable rock
Until it finds the black gold of nutrients
Hidden below the surface
ABOUT ME
Behind the Words
Sister Dixi is a member of The Order of Sustainable Faith (sustainablefaith.com/theorder), a 21st century religious order. You can find us on Facebook at facebook.com/dixie.ernie.
Love is a union of emotion and choice, chemistry and conversation, solace and solidarity, touch and response, uplift and upend.
Sister Dixi
